I had a pretty good time here in North Carolina for this mini vacation of mine. Got to spend time with my mother and family and went to this pretty dope mall called Southpoint. Although starting next week I’m going back to work for the rest of my vacation until the spring semester starts.

I have officially finished my first semester of college. It’s been a crazy roller coaster of just a bunch of emotions but I’ve gotten through it.

Now for this well needed 6 week break.

Going to take a nap and hopefully do these essays when I wake up.

I took my first final for Sociology today and I must say that I impressed myself on it quite a bit. The way I did I can expect either a C or B on it hopefully.Tomorrow is my day without an exam but I will be spending it at work as well as completing some essays that I owe for English.

Words can’t describe how excited I am for this 5 week break. It is truly well needed!

And then it’s 5 weeks off from school until the new semester starts. This has been an extremely stressful fall semester for my first year of college and I am glad it is ending. I just need this week to be over. Then I can get back into my old routine of tumblr and picking back up into different fandoms. There are already a lists of shows that I want to start watching once this semester ends. 

I feel as though now that the first semester is ending I am so much more knowledgeable of what to expect for the spring. Now I can do better and cancel out these bad grades. I am so grateful for my 3.8 over the summer program otherwise I don’t know what I would be getting at this point. I am not beating myself up over my performance since I always haven’t done well my first year. I gradually increase with performance as I adapt. Easier to look at it that way as I think about it.

I’m that nigga right now. Fuck the police!

My opinions have fluctuated on everything. I didn’t have any books the first week and like I stated in my last post I felt as though I wasn’t prepared when I had no books at all. Especially when the assignments were to read. However, I realized that even though I didn’t have any of the books I could still grasp everything that was going on in class in comparison to others.

I’ve managed to stay friends with my summer program buddies and I tend to speak and hand out with them more in comparison to the other students attending the school. I was hesitant at first but yesterday I made a promise to myself that I will try and talk to some of the kids in my classes to say the very least.

I wasn’t feeling the school at all to be honest but I am slowly warming up to it. I received a letter from a scholarship I have applied to and must send in a conformation that I am attending my school in order to receive $1,000 plus I get my first Work Study paycheck next Friday. So with that money I can save part of it as well as buy new clothes.

I finished at 12:30pm and didn’t end up getting home until 6:00pm.

Contemplating on an outfit that I will wear tomorrow.

I am just extremely nervous about college starting on Monday. I feel so unprepared right now with everything. I have my binders, paper, and pens but that is it. I don’t have a haircut yet and I still haven’t bought any books for my classes. Plus I don’t get my first check from work study until the 7th of September. When one thing isn’t completed it feels as though everything is wrong. 

I started my grounds keeping work study last week and into this week. My I will receive my first paycheck the 7th of September since we get paid every two weeks. Considering that our first week was apart of that “2 weeks” and we weren’t given a time slip for payment all 3 paychecks will arrive on that day and then the normal every two weeks will go into effect. Pretty much they have me painting signs throughout the campus as well shadowing with some of the workers to see what they do. I swear it is honestly the longest 4 hours of my life and the heat makes everything that much more tiring. Luckily enough come fall semester we will be doing more inside work than anything. 

My goal for my first year of college is pretty much based around my desire to study abroad for my sophomore year. I am going to keep up a GPA of over 3.5 and strive for around 3.7-3.8. Then have a session with the study abroad in the spring and get everything in check and order. All I am thinking about is going away and while it is good to have that goal for me to strive in order to pass I need to be more lenient of my thinking so that isn’t all I am focused on and lose track of classes and work.

My choices for studying abroad next year are as followed. Australia, England, Japan, or South Korea. Australia being the number choice. Although my mother has issues with me picking that country for a bunch of different reasons. Mainly because of the fact that she works for American Airlines and it would be more difficult and expensive for her to visit considering that isn’t a carrier of the country. She is more excited and set about England considering family is there as well as her own benefits of being “back home”

I already have 7 credits early for my fall semester and I am ahead of the game. The grades for both my ENG 1004 and MATH 1030 consisted of an A- and A. Words cannot describe my happiness right now. I worked my ass these past 6 weeks with countless amounts of 4-8 page essays and studying for math exams and the work finally paid off. My GPA all in all for the summer program is a 3.8/4.0. 

I am happy and disappointed/unsatisfied at the same time. Mainly for the reason that if I just got a straight A in English then my GPA would have been a perfect 4.0. Just knowing how close I am is bitter sweet. 

Next thing I need to focus on is buying these damn books for my fall semester classes. $278 worth of books just for the fall. Seriously, I finally see why people complain about college. It ain’t no joke!

It is grounds keeping and it involves 4 hours every day of manual labor. Oh god, I didn’t know it was going to be this stressful when I applied. Really the only thing that is keeping me in this job is the pay check so I will suck it up. The past two days were a very tiring but tomorrow and the following days will be pretty simple since I am only going to be re-painting benches and poles. 

I have been so caught up with this summer program that I have been on probably 3 times in the past 6 weeks and reblogged maybe a total of 4 things. It’s crazy what college work can do to someone. I felt in the back of my mind that I needed to be on tumblr and really wished that the end of me using this wasn’t to come. But now I feel a bit at ease since I just finished the program on Thursday and I am officially a UCONN student.

I’ve met an array of different people while there and glad to have gotten to know them. So now for the fall semester I will have one class with all of my group of friends! It really feels good to be back on tumblr. I will be catching up with everyone shortly!